Cinderella Dreams

I know you’re out there. Somewhere.. Maybe you’re thinking about me.. But then again maybe your not. One thing is certain though, one day you will be. We can fantasize all we want about how one day it will be better and how “one day it will be okay” but this is today and today sucks just as bad as it did yesterday and they day before. Forgive me if it is to forward to say that i am more than ready for you to change everything for me. I’m growing up. I’ve moved on and moved out. I have come to the conclusion that if i keep looking for that “perfect person” then i am going to completely miss out on that “perfectly imperfect person” that could be standing right in front of me, who could make me perfectly happy.So here i am. Believe it or not I’m out there.. Just waiting. Waiting for you to make the first move. Waiting for you to find me. Waiting for you to fix me.. There are some things you need to know about me before we do this. I am an artist okay? My view on the world and its entirety may be entirely different from yours and i wouldn’t have it any other way. I see beauty in everything. It may be hard to see at first but i know it’s there somewhere. This, in turn, makes me fall very easily and fall very fast. If i give you my time, I’m giving you moments if the little life that i have to live so don’t waste it by using all of this to your advantage.I give everything. Absolutely everything and expect nothing. No one had ever understood why, so if i confuse you just accept it. There is a lot more to me than anyone knows about, but one day you will so I’m warning you now, brace yourself. I’m kinda busy sometimes. I do a lot of things to keep myself occupied. I’ve come to the conclusion that i don’t always want to wake up and face my life so i hide behind my passions. Music, Art, Romance…Anything to distract me from reality. I have a lot going for me but i don’t see it so I’m going to need lots of encouragement. I’ve had a very rough past that few know about but one day you will. I don’t always feel beautiful but when you think i am, tell me. My favorite kisses are kisses on the forehead and on the upper cheek bone. They make me smile the biggest. My favorite thing in the world is the little tiny soap bubbles that come out of the dish soap so darling, let me do the dishes. If you just hang in there and support me a little, i promise I’ll be your everything. I’ll clean up after your messes, hopefully there not too bad but if you puke or pee on the toilet seat, your a big boy. It’s all yours. I love cooking so look forward to that. By the way if the recipe sucks, tell me. Don’t lie to me. Ever. I’ll do all the laundry if you balance the checkbooks that’s all i ask. Don’t let me. I want a family and i pretty much have it all planned out but if you would like to put in some input as far as house decor or baby names, I’ll consider hearing you out. I sing in my sleep, i get it from my grandpa, If the song sucks wake me up. Which reminds me, If you don’t have an acceptable taste in music, please be prepared for a change. I’m going to color your world and rock your soul with mine. I’m a hopeless romantic so you should be also. I need that more than anything. I can’t promise you i will be able to fix all of your problems but i promise you wont have to face them alone anymore. I know you’re out there.. Somewhere. Maybe I’ve met you before. Maybe our story is chapters filled with “almost interactions.” Maybe we’ve fallen in love and don’t even know it yet.. One day we will.. I know you’re out there..Wherever that may be, take a look at the stars tonight for me. All i do is look at them and think of you and how wonderful love is going to be. They say this should feel something like fire.. I don’t know if that’s true but it sounds pretty dangerous.. And oh my God am i ready. I’m out there darling… Come find me.

No matter how many years go by, i know one thing is as true as it ever was.. Ill see you soon.

And to think i haven’t even met you yet.. ♥